I'm 20 Now

by Here I Go, Again

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Single off of my upcoming album "Crown Shyness"


...and I just wanna lay in bed
watching cowboy beebop
I bet my grandpa still hopes I'll become a famous shortstop
for the yankees
another bullet point on the list of things I'll never be

'cause what do I know about myself?
besides that I don't know myself at all?

my life's a mess again so there's no way to defend why I'm here
my life's a mess again so there's no way to defend why

I'm romanticizing living in squalor
and that doesn't bode well with aspirations of someday becoming a father
I hope the girl that lies next to me is gonna be the mother
I hope I have the qualities needed to raise another

I wonder what my kids'll think when they hear these songs
I wonder if I'm even gonna live that long

my life's a mess again (x3)

On that day
I went home
my family sang for me then I ate dinner alone
it was my fault
I didn't talk much
I can't bullshit like I used to about such and such

but I remember when I could, I was younger
now I'm the ghost of a child just 20 years taller


released August 6, 2017
mixed and mastered and mixed too by Quenten Calvano



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Here I Go, Again Bethlehem, Pennsylvania

singing/songwriting-guy, creating music under solo project moniker "Here I Go, Again"

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